When I was 13 i had my first epileptic seizure. It was a bit of a shock for everyone as there seemed to be no history of it in the family. All I really knew about it was a brief storyline in Home & Away and the warnings before programmes about strobe lighting. After having tests and being diagnosed by the doctors I actually felt quite proud of it. The seizures were horrible, obviously but I thought it made me kind of special. It was only as the years went on that I started having issues with it. Finding the right medication for someone is not necessarily an easy process. I have changed my medication several times in 14 years. Either I had horrendous side effects or the medications didn't control my seizures.
When I was younger I always thought that Doctors were Gods and they knew everything. If you had a problem they just give you some magic medicine and it goes away. Growing up I have come to realise that there is still a hell of a lot they don't know. I have seen how much the Doctors knowledge of Epilepsy has grown in just the 14 years I have experienced it but they still only know a small amount.
I guess it has taken me along time to realise that my 'brain problems' (as I like to call them) aren't going to go away, but it's finding a balance between controlling the seizures and managing the side effects. It's a pretty tough thing to do but I think going through everything has taken me on an interesting journey in life. I'll be honest, I think some of my best qualities (and worst) are because of what I've been through. I often wonder what my life would have been like if I didn't have Epilepsy. As many difficulties as I have gone through, if I was given a wish to have not had that seizure at 13, I'm not sure I would use it.